Someone who i truely deeply missing...

"Be a good girl, listen to your mum, study well"... that's the 3 famous sentences which has been uttered from his mouth for years..since i was a kid. i can remember clearly his tall body figure, hugging me.. i can remember the scar of his back.. i still hear his voice in my heart until today.. and i remember his face, his looks ..everything of him being kept in my heart, which i will never let go. there is only one word which i can able to say to him, "i miss you".

4am is the time where he used to called me.. to know how am i..what am i doing...duh, of cos i am sleeping that time, having me rest on my bed.. 27th July 2005, Bukit Jalil, Kl, i was staying there to have fun with mum's friend's children... and there it goes.. phone rang exactly at 4am. i remember i picked up the call, happily to listen to his voice.. his comfortable voice. without asking much, i act got a small lecture from him, asking why i didnt stay at my own place... and so and so..

i remember i was tired , n i answered him ' lets just talk about this tomorrow okay, i will explain to you tomorrow'. and i hung up the call, n i continue to sleep.. day goes by.. wondering y he didn't called me... he knew that i couldn't call him back because i couldn't retrieve his contact number. 0000, that is the number who used to call me every night.

25th august 2005, library, ipoh, 2.36pm , i received a call from Stoney, my god brother, telling me that, he had an accident , and passed away with another four friends... i was terribly shocked, tears rolled down from my eyes, through my cheeks...i cried, and i was stunt.

i remember Nurmala, my classmate sent me home using her scooter.. i told mum.. n i cried... mum was stunt...reached home, and i saw the news of him at ntv7... Ang Kar Hao , 25 and the rest passed away in a tragic accident...at kuantan.

26th august 2005, went back to klang to attend his funeral.... my tears started to rolled non stop when i see his face, sleeping restlessly in the coffin. his coffin that time was filled with my tears... everyone did comfort me, but reached failure...i just couldn't control myself...

if i have the ability to turn back times, i will never hung up his call... i would rather let him to nag on me...i miss you, brother. if u see this, i would want to let you know, i am a big girl now, i am 22 years old now... i got good results in my smp and stpm...and where is my presents which you had promised me..... i want you to protect me. and i want to let you know that u will always be my hero in my heart. dont worry, have a good rest, im good here, Jesper, Stoney, and the rest of the cousins are taking good care of me. i wish to see u again.. i know its not gonna be long, an we going to meet up soon. take care, i will take care here as well, so i can meet u again.

i love you. rest in peace. THOUSAND HUGS!