Expand The Horizon ...

im 22 now. its been 5 years since anemia followed me. and im lucky tht im still in a good condition...Doc always says.. u have to be happy and u must not tension . i know family n friends are worrying bout me, as they say my nose bled, and blood came from my throat n ears.. well, all i can say is relax, im cool here. its does not hurts me. well if God loves me, He would take me with Him. so do not be sad because God loves me.

i was in klang last week, and no1 knows my doctor consulted me. He said , if this continues on, he need me to stay in hospital...it also means tht i hv to take injections again. oh gosh @@.. but no worries cos it does not hurts. my skin is now thicker thn an elephant i guess... zzzz

brother kips reminds me tht no1 will buy coffin for me if i leave this world. that is so mean of him. but all i know is bcos he cares for me... Baby doesnt know all this...Jenny doesnt knnow all this... same goes to yong ren, tian mi mi...is just because i think i loves them, and i canot let them worry about me too much. so i just decided to jot it here... once again sorry dearies. because i didnt tell anyone of you. i jotted it down here so at least if anything happen, u all can find hints from here... but choi, it wont happen to me, cos im still young....

another sad thing, my 'bed mate' used to be my friend, v have similarities that both of us hving the same sickness. well, she passed awy ...Doc told me... RIP, girl.... dont be sad... hmm take me along if ure lonely. cos im a bit worried and scared to b alone... im worried tht i will get lost there..i remember i did sum stupid stuff on a paper n u kept it in ur pocket. lol.... i did a cool signature using my blood stain ... its a bit creepy, but i guess both of us didnt gives a damn on tht.cos v both dont pantang anything....

well... i know i might be the next, for im prepared. the only thing i rly cant let go is my family , baby n friends here.... well but i think i still can watch thm even if im not here...ngek ngek ngek...so dont gossip me whn im gone.... lolz jk jk...

honestly, my cough kills me... blood ... blood blood... as if im a vampire drinking blood because i can taste evry drip of the blood in my throat....hmm.....


but no worries im alrite so far..

p/s : i have a friend , and He is God. I have Father, and He is God..
God loves me. He loves you too.
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