A New Hope

I saw one of my friend's quote ;

"Forgiving does not erase the bitter past. A healed memory is not a deleted memory. Instead, forgiving what we cannot forget creates a new way to remember. We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future." (Beverly Flanigan)

Well said. Past is past, life have to still go on no matter what. It seem like im still holding on, but frankly, i admit that i still cant find my 100% feelings towards you. Im sorry. Maybe it takes time. It dont really comfort me even though we have this suggestion to look over on you. How long can i control you?

I hope everything which has passed will be the last, and it will never happen again. I really realized that different people has different thinking. Others might be saying 'no, i think you are wrong, or vice versa, but the truth of what happened only god knows. Im still me, and i will still be myself. I wont change because of anyone. That's me. Jess. All i can say is it really depends on future, what will happen next. I do hope that we can get married, who doesnt hope for that, unless that particular person is playing with you.

All i can say i just want to be myself, and i wont change this perception. I will change automatically as i grow elder. So i hope no one will judge anything. I will for sure welcome you if you want to be my listener. We dont force someone to change, it takes time. I guess everyone understand this. If you like yeah you are welcomed. But if you dislike, 'hey i didnt ask you to be here'. Guess it shows what i mean. Im me, i have my own thinking, own perceptions.

Okay back to the topic, I love you, and i hope you will never hurt me again. Thats all. smple message from me.