To stay or not to stay

days passes by, and im still thinking whether i shall stay or shall i leave.
Im not gonna change because of anyone. If i could, i would rather choose to be a flirty type of girl. LOL. its more fun to chat around these kinda way. but i guess its childish and immature behavior.
well all im gonna do is just to focus on my studies, and yes im gonna graduate soon. final year in dis unsophisticated and lapuk and ulu place.

Not gonna think of anyone anymore. Just let it be. and let TIME proves everything. all im gonna focus is who is my future hubby. LOl i noe its kinda stupid, but yeah i wondered that before. and i wish my hubby gonna loves me and cares for me for all his life, cos im gona do the same thing to him. I also hope he can understand me, and just let me do anything i want, as long as it doesnt hurt him. Hehe v shall see who is the lucky one. O yeah i wish my hubby is a good listener who can comfort me well. waiting for your existence hubby. I wan you to be my shelter.

okok back to real life, im happy cos im not those sweet talkers who can charm guys around by just fb-ing and chatting with thm. if thy feel so, i would say THANK YOU lol. just wana be back myself thats d most important thing. hehehe. i guess the way i charm others is by showing my messiness, my dirtyness and my ugliness.hehe and if thy accept me, yeah i would say WElcome to my world. if not thn GET lOST. lol. afterall, be yourself. hehe

if it comes to love, i would say that the only person i really love and care is my mum. lalala~~sorry to be selfish if i dont mention any1 here. i put my mum on top of the list.

CNY is coming and hell yeah everybody is like damn happy with it. but not me instead. dono y. but im glad i can be good girl again to help mum during dis cny eventhough i dont have the oppurtunity to celebrate like others does.Thank God for giving me more time and chances to help my mum and for me to show that i loves her. therefore no cny clothes for me.I rather save it to buy some formal clothes. cos no point to wear new clothes to help mum. but anyway happy cny to you guys, enjoy to the max okay.

p/s I LOVE YOU MUM. i will try to accompany you as much as i could, and to see you happy everyday. your smile is the most important after all. dont worry about me, cos even though im not strong as you,. im sure that im in the process of learning to be a more tougher person. MUACKS

i hate liars

Y must pple tell lies? Just to cover up and to protect thr images.. some are even so silly tht thy dont know that others know the truth bout him/herself. Lies doesnt work, but honesty does. U cant win any1's heart by telling them lies. Instead, try to be honest with them, and u will see the difference. the more lies u tell , the more others gonna sit, watch, and enjoy ur lies, laugh at you, because they noe about the truth. Isnt this pathetic?

Instead of maintaining or to cover up ur secrets by telling lies, why not, tell them the truth. for example, u got 50% for ur paper but u boasted to others that u got 100%. @@ oh gosh. wat a childish lie, i could say. That is not going to help you to maintain your image. Trust me. i will just gonna sit and watch and view, how you, as a real person is. Dont feel like knowing a fake person. It makes me feeling so fake too.

Few days had passed after our semester starts... Everything stays the same... But yet.. things had also changed. Well i know i cant force and i can do anything so that things wont change. I have the feeling im not goning to be happy. and yea i admit that im not happy. I hope that im someone strong, i Hope that i can forgive and forget everything had happened...bt its hard. God pls help me. Im crying for you. Yor are the only one who truely understands bout me.

Things can change very fast.... even humans.. well cant blame tht. i guess thts human nature. If i can turn back time, i would choose not to be here. i mean on earth. Is hard to pretend to smile infrnt of everyone while my hearts hurts deeply. oh gosh i can never explain to you how the pain was. but is PAIN

hmm i keep telling myself i hvto b strong whatever it takes. God please help. im no longer a happy children on this earth anymore..... Take me if You can.